December

Hmmm

Break up with him for two months dy

Now I'm very okay

:)

Recently I eat so much!!  And the consequences is I gain weight x.x

The weird thing is I never get full...

Wondering why my stomach always hungry :(

Final exam coming soon but im still in playing mood

On the other hand Recently I hang out almost everyday!!!!

Now I'm seriously lack of money ToT

:(

i want to update my blog..
but i have no idea what to start with...

today. i failed to apply for ptptn loan :(
because of my own mistake...
how careless i am..
i m so stupid...
mom need to spend money on me dy :(
luckily i still got scholarship to survive ...
but budget for my CNY clothes had gone

im POOR.


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recently i neglect my studies.
and i feel very guilty.
but i m just very lazy..
where is my motivation.?


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i think im very strong :)
i thought i will

feeling of drunk

the feeling of drunk is really bad.
i just cant remember what i had did ~
vomit whole night and blue black everywhere on my body -,-
i guess i fall down many time..
ishhhh

i swear i would not try it again.

recent's life

最近我过得很好 吃得很饱
我没有自暴自弃
我很珍惜自己的身体
我想妈妈看到我这样会为我高兴吧。

我把所有东西通通都换掉了
好麻烦哦 我以后也不想做这么麻烦的事了 =.=
我拖了好多天 才有勇气把全部东西都拿掉
之前我承认我不敢在 fb 放single..
其实是我自己希望还有机会吧
我也怕全部人会问我
我不会答 为什么
因为我不知道为什么 他不要我
现在
我必须接受事实了。
我真的分手了。
一个月了。

原来正真分手的时候我不敢告诉别人
之前我不想面对
我天天都让自己很忙
忙得没时间想东想西


我明白放过他 是放过自己 这个道理
现在我想我可以把这段回忆埋藏在我心里了。

promise

i promise myself 

yesterday was the last day really..

i had wasted 3 weeks time..

i want to chase back all the time i had wasted.

:)

我会让自己过得开心 :)

祝我生日快樂

我知道伤心不能改变什么
那么让我诚实一点
诚实 难免有不能控制的宣泄
只有关上了门不必理谁
一个人坐在空荡包厢里面
手机让它休息一夜
难
想切歌切掉回忆的画面
眼泪不能流过十二点

Woh~ 生日快乐
我对自己说
蜡烛点了 寂寞亮了
生日快乐 泪也融了
我要谢谢你给的
你拿走的一切

还爱你 带一点恨
还有时间 才能平衡
热恋伤痕 幻灭重生
祝我生日快乐

一个人坐在空荡包厢里面
手机让它休息一夜
难
想切歌切掉回忆的画面
眼泪不能流过十二点

生日快乐
我对自己说
蜡烛点了 寂寞亮了
生日快乐 泪也融了
我要谢谢你给的
你拿走的一切

还爱你 带一点恨
还有时间 才能平衡
热恋伤痕 幻灭重生
祝我生日快乐

还爱你 带一点恨
还有时间 才能平衡
热恋伤痕 幻灭重生
祝我生日快乐


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這首歌很適合我 :(
因為生日前一天哭慘了。

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猜不透
你最近是好是坏的沉默
我也不想去追问太多
但是他为彼此的戏上了锁

猜不透
相处会比分开还寂寞
两个人都只是得过且过
无法感受每次触摸
是真的，是热的

如果忽远忽近的洒脱是你要的自由
那我宁愿回到一个人生活
如果忽冷忽热的温柔是你的借口
那我宁愿对你从没认真过

猜不透
相处会比分开还寂寞
两个人都只是得过且过
无法感受每次触摸
是真的，是热的

如果忽远忽近的洒脱是你要的自由
那我宁愿回到一个人生活

如果忽冷忽热的温柔是你的借口
那我宁愿对你从没认真过
如果忽远忽近的洒脱是你要的自由
那我宁愿回到一个人生活

如果忽冷忽热的温柔是你的借口
那我宁愿对你从没认真过
到底这感觉谁对谁错
我已不想追求

越是在乎的人越是猜不透

分手篇

分手都已經六天了(11/10/2012)
對於這段感情 我無話可說
很多人都說 怎麼我分手後那麼平靜
我只能說 哭也哭過了 錯的也不是我
只有點不甘心
畢竟 這是三年的感情(從 03/10/2009 - 11/10/2012）
真的很捨不得放手
不過他心變了 變得不再我這了
就讓他走吧。
其實我早就感覺到他心沒在我這了
一直沒說出來 只是希望他會有什麼改變
我對愛情太失望了
對男生太失望了。




不過生氣的是
他竟然在我生日前夕和我分手啊
是想讓我一輩子都記得他？
著20歲的生日過的太不高興了
另外我想說 今天這十月真的是太邪了
我朋友們都分手了 也很多人車禍死亡 =.=
連我自己也中招

happy 3 years anniversary

03/10/2012

today is our anniversary

 boyfie forget it

but i dy knew he will forgot

so 

take it easy

this few days he just treat me very cool

maybe was because i scold him last few days ago?

really dont know.

04./10/2012

today is the day he go to Brunei 

and start his working life at there

he dont have Brunei mobile number yet

so just can contact through fb,whatsapp or viber?

but i guess he wont call me also.

this few days i very 失常....

keep on find him 

他越不理我 我就越著急

其實只要他好好和我談一次

我就不會那麼失常了我想

actually its just 2 weeks i didnt meet him..

but feel like long time never see him

our distance are very farrrrrrrrrrrr

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這幾天

我過得很..........

頹廢的生活

就讓我繼續頹廢下去吧。
就多一個星期。
我真的會好好去讀書。




有時有在想 是我自己一個人在堅持嗎？
我會不會太執著？

今天看到了一個post.
改變了心情

“如果你們已經在一起了，就要去努力的相信對方，不要因為一件小事就去胡亂猜疑，
那樣一點好處都沒有，也是你對你自己不自信的一種表現，反而會讓對方對你逐漸失去信心。"


真的好像再說著我，我可以做到嗎?

我突然覺得自己像sohai。
白擔心一場
哭著睡著  哭著醒來。

算了，你沒有事就好。

a post without topic

suddenly feel like want to blog..
maybe is due to chatting with him in evening..
emo? nonono... but i dont know how to describe my feelings...
i can't even control myself not to think so much..
this is me...a girl like to think non stop...
my brain never rest...even dreaming while sleeping...
if can choose,i will rather be like him..ignore everything...


now i should just put more effort on my studies...
now i'm in advance diploma with merit scholarship...
parent are happy with it...it really save a lot !
now is week 2 of first semester...yet i still on holiday mood...
watching drama everyday..facebook..do nothing..
go lecture without note..................
never touch any homework or note or assignment...
relax on first 2 weeks..
i will force myself to study after this..

on the other hand,
i have to change my habit on spending money on buying unnecessary stuff!!!
i really need to control myself not to buy too much useless stuff...
why i couldn't stop myself to do it :(

normal post

hehehe

finally i get my starbucks tumbler :)

it's pink in colour !

i couldn't found any one of this in Malaysia...

therefore i ask my sister help me to purchase at Taiwan!

so lucky that she found at taiwan...

tq her so much :)

tadaz

new curly hairstyle

look mature

i know its a bit wired 

haha.

because i dont know 打理 :(

還有這幾天連續四天沒有水來

衣服碗碟都沒辦法洗！

還得特地拿上阿姨家去洗 =.=

最近我們倆都肥了

哈哈

很想念我的寶貝 

昨天婆婆的車電箱沒有電 T.T

back to normal life

dear 我很想念你叻～不知道又要等多久才能見到你...
又要開始讀書的生活啦
雖然這樣的生活很無聊 可是還是要過
畢竟讀書不是我的興趣
說真的
我討厭
真的不喜歡讀書
你們都不信
都說：不要假啦，成績又那麼好

我每天都在complain complain...我知道不應該這樣 :(
可是做著自己不喜歡的事，complain一下下可以嗎?
我真的只想過平淡而不是奢華的生活。
名牌包包衣服沒有就沒有
要那麼多有用嗎
如果人沒有要這些多餘的東西
根本不必辛苦自己那麼多
要的多 辛苦越多

MIri,Sarawak..Life

quite enjoy my life at Miri,sarawak..
the reason is because i dont have to do any house chores...
Besides that, i can stick with him everyday :)
what i do at here is just eat,eat and eat :D
soon i will gain weight...
one more week i gonna leave here and back to kl to start my first semester of advance diploma...
pray hard to score well for my final exam TOT
result will be release on 18th of September..which is the first day of reopen school ....



on the other hand..my sister had came back from Taiwan..
she completed her study and graduated..she is now looking for job :)
dont know she will stay at Malaysia temporary or permanently @.@
i've no idea what she want~




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last Friday, we went to Brunei for 2D1N trip~
just to walk around :)
besides , he want to meet his friend...
we watched a movie,window shopping..
that is. :)

enjoy the pakto moment with him ...

staying overnight at Empire hotel..

it s a 6 star hotel !

it's behind me :)

took by my dear !

holiday...

finished my final exam for last semester in Diploma last Friday...

2 years and 4 months..

so fast hor?

hope i can score well for my final :s

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i cut,rebond,dye,treatment my hair last saturday...

tammy's friend FOC ,be my hairstylist ^_^

i cut my fringe 

do i look better with this hair style?

well, this is the picture snap under sun

is to show to the colour dye effect ! haha

because this is my first time

so 不上色

cant see the colour =.=

but you can see my damage hair!!!!!

yesterday went out with tammy :)

sing k 

see.no colour on my hair!

and gather with cousin and mummy :)

spend my happy night with them ♥

random

today is 26th of August dy...
3 more days left....
im going to meet him soon...
realizing time pass very fast..
he leave here to there.alr more than a year..
how i pass without him during this period?
all of my friends say im strong,determine...
they dont understand why i can stay relation with him...
they salute me...
i have no idea what make me strong..
is our love? idk.


i wil be posting the same post at here and our blog :)
haha...

Final exam and final semester :)

Hehe finally it is last semester for diPloma dy...
I started my revision since last week.
A but late because this semester will be a bit tough for me!
Stupid people need more effort! And I'm stupid :)
I always admit I'm not intelligent and smart.
But I admit I'm hardworking than other.


Add oil for my final exam :)






Great new ! I will going to fly again xD to Sarawak to Mee my dear :)
Hurray!!!

Sukma

oh yeah,i purposely came back to kuantan is because of SUKMA

the place i used to went everyday from standard until form 2

ya.i was an ex gymnast.

i miss the carpet as well :)

sitting whole day long to view the competition !!

i super duper like this !!!!

grrrrrrrrrrrrr i want it T.T

pahang got NO3 in team competition.

congratulation to my junior !

normal outfit~ 

i hate makeup seriously, it will make my eye very tired!

shit. but sometimes will make up because i afraid my comestic will dry and end up with throwing it into rubbish dump.

sorry.i m not critisizing those who use to make up everyday.

im just saying myself :)

:(

now is week 11. left 3 week only :(
final exam coming soon...
dont know why, i got a feeling that i will not score good result this time.
what make me so worries? my lazyness bahz.
feel so so so lazy to start revision.
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i need motivation so badly......................................................................................

Feelings

昨天哭了整個晚上 為甚麼？ 一開口眼淚就停不了 最近想很多 或許我不配有有好朋友和男朋友？

happy birthday to my hubby ! happy 999

                today is his 20th years old birthday :)


but the sad case is i studying at kl but he is working at sarawak
what a far far distances ~
but luckily his parent is over there this few days !
at least he pass with parent instead of alone :)
wish you have a healthy body and happily life over there~
i love you always :)
muacksz ♥




on the other hand.today is our 999 days ! 
how lovely it is :)

迟来的一篇

7/6/2012 至 15/6/2012 这段日子里面我和妈妈舅母飛去台湾找姐姐了
我們去了蠻多地方的，不過台灣每天都在下雨，真的很掃興啦！
我們第一天就只坐飛機 高鐵 巴士。在姐姐的宿舍呆著罷了。
第二天去了屏東，高雄逛。由於天氣的關係，很多原本編好的行程都被逼取消了 :(
第三天是姐姐的畢業典禮。所以也沒去哪裡啦，就呆在學校。晚上去吃buffet 罷了～
第四天下很大很大雨，那裡都沒得去啊～又淹水又地震！第一次穿雨衣～哈哈～
第五天我們拿著行李，去花蓮。那裡只是看風景而已。我被很多很多蚊子叮！癢死了 :'(
第六天還是在花蓮～
第七天呢。就去台北了～住在西門町，去了台北101,龍山寺，還有夜市。我也忘了那是什麼夜市 =.= 不過就買了好多東西～
第八天在西門町逛，那裡很大，一整天都逛不完 =.=
第九天就回家了～哈哈

這一篇有夠summary 了吧～哈哈，沒辦法，我真的沒空寫那麼多 / . \

照片都在姐姐的facebook裡～我連照片都懶得post呢 =.=

paiseh~ haha

520

520

今天是我和他在一起至今第三次的520哦。。。

你们有和自己心爱的人一起度过吗？

我没有嘢

没办法一起度过

每次节日一到总会有一种莫名的悲伤

提醒我 “你爱的人不在你身边  没有人和你庆祝“

这种日子还要持续多久呢？

我读完书后吗？

那应该还有很久吧。

节日时朋友都去应节 很开心吧

你现在的心情也和我一样吗?

化悲愤为力量  去看戏或温习功课算了吧

:(

一个人在宿舍
现在这里下大雨 闪电 打雷
很恐怖 :(


真希望有人可以保护我。




话说这学期都上了差不多一个月
可是我却什么都还没开始做
我觉得 这学期蛮难的
懒惰打败我了 哎呀
最近也花了很多钱。。。
我的生活真糟糕 ;(

:)

心情不好

可是我会用微笑去面对

我知道 

不要把别人对你的好当成理所当然

他们本可以不用这么做

别人对我不好

也没办法

真的要学会独自一人面对所有问题了。

SEM 6'S RESULT

i just check my result...
as what i had expected..
so i didnt feel happy or sad ....
last semester was an easy and short semester..
so i dont think it's happy or proud to get 4.0..
last recall..this semester is my final semester for diploma !!!!!
cant make any mistake...
hope SBS office will approve my leave :(
good luck !

Ipoh

good afternoon =)

later i'll depart to Ipoh with my brother..

ofcuz he is the driver !

will update my blog soon :)

hmmm, our blog, you really want it to be dying fish ?

:(

my semester break end soon T^T so sad. gonna start study dy~

bored life~
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hihi, quite boring when stay at ipoh..actually the place i went is call sitiawan...
so nothing to share.. just a coconut pudding very special...
so yesterday i came back to kl to start my school life..
repeat this many times dy, this gonna be my final semester for Diploma...
after diploma will be advance diploma..
still considering what to choose in advance diploma..
sigh !
later i'll be going to lecture on 1pm !
ishh. im headache because of the leave letter ! shit.

happy holiday ♥

haiz, why time pass so fast, especially happy moment~

i went sarawak for two week, and now im at Kuantan!

nice experience , i went sarawak alone and come back alone :)

wait 5 hours in KLIA alone for aeroplane yesterday.

drink alone, eat alone, shopping alone, wait alone...

seriously i dislike aeroplane D:

well, here is some photo to share. im lazy to share everything in sarawak.haha ;p

funny photo before i leave~  ♥

i love beef and lamb so much !  ♥

bak gut teh

nasi lalapan. 

quite spicy~

horlick blen, with beef noodles :)

watched titanic with him  ♥

haha, my baby~ thin ! 

big big pizza, at Italy restaurant...

horlick mcfluary 

Indian food

finally he went saloon for hair cut (>.<)

dim sum~ haha

 ♥ ♥ ♥

celebrating baby's birthday!

 ♥ ♥ ♥

 ♥ ♥

 ♥

he likes onion !

he ask for more more more onion for his sandwishes , haha.

he like my sandwish :)

laksa!  ♥

korean food ! 

his naughty nephew !!!

grrrrr

went brunei for sushi !

ate a lot and now became fei po dy / . \

look like korean hor?

his nephew too !

children looking at fish!

skype with mummy and aunt~~

leave sarawak! 

:(

shopping alone and KLIA 

=(

bought chocolate for my cousin and daddy !

leave KLIA - to Kuantan,,,

and finally i reached kuantan !

 ♥ ♥ ♥